03 November 2006

el sadismo como forma de vida

Es extraño observar que mientras más me interesa una persona, románticamente hablando, más siento el impulso de ajustarla a mis parámetros, manipularla para que se comporte como quiero y espero de ella actitudes y reacciones que no me atrevería a pedirle de frente, pero igual de alguna forma consigo presenciarlas. Se supone que si me gusta, me atrae por lo que es, pero siento un disfrute peculiar en saber que me permite manejarlo.

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  1. Anonymous3:49 AM

    Ugh me too.
    Vieras ahorita como ando con un crush que tengo.
    That man is blind si no sabe como trato de manipularlo para que sea perfecto para mi!

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  2. Yay, one more to join the club!

    Defending ourselves a bit [and giving my share of ego feeding of the post]: it's so hard to find out there people that fit our standards and that respond our profiles and expectations that we sometimes see ourselves forced to manipulate other to become what we really want.

    But where will this get us? Nowhere, cuz deep inside we know we can't change anyone; so we pretend the person changed when we actually made them up in our heads. They're mostly the same but we force ourselves to believe they are what we want. There's this guy on the web; he's cute and young [I have a thing for teenagers u.u], eager and crazy. The other day he said he was in love with me and i said I didn't believe him; he got pissed and I blocked him. But few minutes later I unblocked him for the compliments pleased my like hell! See, ego!

    Sorry for rambling here Marce, but you know, I tend to write/say a lot to make my statements. To manipulate others to please ourselves is bad; but we're humans, it's not like we're going to stop doing it in the next inhaling. The thing is that we must stop.

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